Crying, Tears non stopped~

cried for few hours...
my dream seems near to me...

i tot if my spm result can get any a then i hav the chance to go taiwan...
but y suddenly everybody dun let me go??

they said i so childish n nvr think about family...
but who will think for me??
y when my turn to study they sure dun hav money??

5 years ago, i wan study chinese skul...they said dun hav money.
5 years later, i wan study at taiwan...they said dun hav money.

but when my both sister wan study at any country...n they wun say they dun hav money...


everythings is my wrong...i cun even reach my dreamz...my tears dropped to my heart n broke to pieces.

suddenly i hate myself...y so useless??
i should die early n let them enjoy their life...
its ntg sense whether i m still alive anot...